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Dirty New Dress

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Today was a good day. I felt happy and accomplished. When my mother came home, I even twirled around and showed her my dress. She laughed and called me beautiful. Everything was perfect today, and nothing could have ruined it. Nothing should have ruined it.   I heard my father shouting at my mother.  I scooted closer to my room's door, wishing on my soul he was just talking normally but in a higher voice. But, he was shouting at her, they were talking about divorce. It was something that happened because of me.  It's quite funny when you know they'll not last but when you hear them say it out loud, it's harder than how you thought how it would be. It's like the universe is making fun of you. Playing with pieces that hurt even when touched, but they throw it around.  For the past year, the bathroom has been my hiding place when I cry, so that nobody can see me cry.  They won't kill me if they catch me crying, but, they have never caught me, so I'm not sure. I

Avowal

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  Abbot Henry, today, I take you, as my lifelong companion, as every day, asleep or awake, I dream of you  all the same. I found home, in your smile.  I love you with a love that shall not die, till the sun grows cold and the stars grow old.  God only knew my heart needed you,  in my weariest of times.  I would not wish any companion,  but you.  I love you, not only for what you are,  but for what I am when I am with you,  I love you not only for what, you have made of yourself,  but for what you are making of me,  I love you for the part of me,  that you bring out. Hand in hand, you and me, Today, tomorrow and forever. For if I am anything,  I am yours.  I swallow a lump forming in my throat, as I look up at him, he smiles his ever-so-charming smile  The smile I have seen since I was so young, fragile, and childish. It's the smile I have grown to love now, ever-so-secretly I cherish it every day.  He seems lost for a few seconds, but then he begins.   I, Abbot Henry, take you, Fra

Brother Dear

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This is the second part of the Tokoyo Train. The will to die can make the most luxurious fancies feel like the ugliest of fires It's clockwork how days work now, No, the sunlight doesn't turn a modest shade and no voices don't fade. The cold shards of wind don't bring cold or hot gushes. Instead, it's the repetitive phrases that haunt me.  For me, it's five gunshots that I hear.  "Miss, your parents? Where are they?" "Miss?"  Mr Collin's voice echoes in the cold house.  I see the late winter noon sunlight fall on the leaves. I finished writing the research paper I had to send to Dr. Keith a few days ago.  I walked down to where Mr Collin was standing.  "Why are you here?" I ask, speaking after days of not uttering a word out of my mouth.  "Well, the research programme had prize money, you rushed out so fast we couldn't give it to you. I'm here for the same" With that he handed me a box.  Taking it, I nodded.  &

Tokyo Train

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This was updated on 27th December and it would be best to read this before the second chapter to follow up with the story. She stares in front of her as a train approaches, and mindlessly steps inside, thinking of what had happened.  Taking the seat she first sees, she sits down gazing at the empty seats ahead of her. Her brain remains mush and it cannot comprehend anything at the moment. All she sees are blurring images of everything that passes her.  Her skin burns and it's hard to figure out where. Her eyesight is fixed but not really, all she sees is a blur.  It's mostly her head, which is out of reach, so much so that it's hard to get control over it. It plays her a single sound,  two gunshots, and that is all she hears.  The train had started and was now moving forward. She tries to look out the window on her left. It's after several hours that her vision clears and she turns to look around the train.  All she sees are empty seats and a lone boy. The boy wears bla

Short & Simple(Validating your Emotions)

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 Hiya  Welcome back! And today we're going to talk about ...                        VALIDATING YOUR EMOTIONS A balanced lifestyle affects your studies to a great extent. We have all seen movies of some genius who studied hard and didn't care about anything but studies. Now unless you're a genius completely content with that sort of a life a balanced lifestyle is not something you absolutely require. I for myself am an over-average student. I have learnt ways that help me study and be at my utmost productivity.  The first thing is peace and balance of life as a whole.  At the age of studying, we tend to feel a lot of emotions and we cannot help it. For example, you're studying and you find out by a social media notification that your friends are hanging out without you. You will feel intense anger or sadness. But, rewind a few minutes before, you were studying. Now you need to question yourself, were the studies important or were my friends who ignored me, more important

As I'd be gone soon

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Built up this persona as if there's nothing inside these walls are too hard to break  while I suffocate here 407904646 Can't tell what's so wrong in me then why shall I try again If this is how it ends every time  leaning to your shoulder stumbling back to nothing you're just an imagination cause in the end  it's just me and no one else who's sitting all alone so this is my cry for help  hold me while you can as I'd be gone soon...  as I'd be gone soon...  

Short and Simple (Fake Friends)

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Hiya! Welcome back Today we're going to talk about.....                      Fake Friends..... As a person who has had a fair share of fake friends and as someone who has more fake friends in their life than the cereal in their bowl, I can proudly say that you have come to the right place and you are going to return wiser. First of all, how to know if someone is a fake friend... 1) Every time you meet them, you're going to feel bad about yourself. The first few times this happens, you might not even notice, but it becomes evident eventually. 2) They will do anything to bring your flaws, or anything bad about you or bad that happened to you, out to the public eye. And they will continue to do this even after you have told them not to.                                                             yeah, the audacity...... 3) A friend should be helping you out when you are in need, they don't just sit and watch. And even if it's obvious, they will just act like they don't